Hello everyone!! I'm going to Toronto next week (May 23rd-June 1st)!! Maybe meetup time again!?

Also also, I'm super delighted to share that Vogue Italia has selected me as one of the 25 photographers for this year's Photo Vogue exhibition in Milan. I can't quite believe it, it's such an honor. :3

The show will be at Galleria Carla Sozzani from June 13th to August 10th. The opening is on June 13th and I will be there!

If you don't already, follow me on Facebook and Twitter for regular news updates and stuff~

Cross-posted from my blog. The entry is a little bipolar, my emo and epic nerdy fangirling all rolled into one. You have been warned.

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25.

Where do I even start? I'm glad to be alive.

It takes a lot of courage to put certain thoughts and feelings into words, too easy to be hurt for who we are, our heart's fragility can only withstand so much when it comes to our weaknesses, I think.

And so, I hadn't known how to write this, and I still don't exactly, not really. But last year -- getting over depression -- was surely the grandest achievement of me being 24 (and of course my doctor, who didn't even have to put me on antidepressants, thank you).

In many ways, I'd been afraid to write about it because I didn't want to jinx my recovery, it wasn't often I had something good like that. (Because you know, more than once, I'd thought that I was fine, just to find myself living in the very opposite of that the next months.)

It was a lot to take in, becoming… un-unhappy.

From my first memory of acute loneliness, to the first time I thought about death when I was four, a lifetime of problems to fix, all the normalcy I never knew and wondered about, that made me different, that nearly…

I hadn't known I suffered from traumatic stress, it went on for so long I'd accepted my feelings and nightmares as normalcy. So when I could see in my head, during my final session, the foundation blocks of my life and thoughts reslotting and rearranging, completely changing, I couldn't understand how it was possible. It was overwhelming and awe-inspiring. And terrifying.

It was as if I had become someone else, held in my hands the memories of someone I might have been, trying to understand it, feeling like an outsider; as if I were separated from that person's past by a wall of glass, I could look but not reach, nor feel.

It left me lost, like I'd finally emerged from the shadows into the sun, yet all that lay around me was vast indistinct land, and it didn't matter where I went. Until finally, and only because I was trying so hard to find something, anything at all, I felt the moment I left that dream place and came surface to air, and I realised with wonder, that I had healed.

If I could liken it to something, maybe, it's what a person's metamorphosis is like.


That was the most important thing that happened to me at 24.

Of course not discounting my move to New York, and the recent news that I was selected by Vogue Italia to be part of Photo Vogue's exhibition in Milan this June. And I saw Gundam Unicorn! Finally!! I haven't been able to lock away my closet nerdiness after that, because oh god, sick cockpit design is sick. I've been daydreaming about how to spend my first billion dollars (simulation room in my house!!), I even re-watched the series to take screenshots just so I can write a blog post about it. NERDY.

Also just finished Lymond Chronicles' book 4, it was SO emotionally brutal I nearly had a heart attack. Phillipa, my sixteen year old heroine. SO BRAVE. HOW?! She journeyed alone to find her friend's baby son in a foreign land, surrounded by dangers and traps and possible assassinations all the bloody way, and gave up her life to the seraglio just so she could protect the child's safety after she had found him. So freaking badass and so much courage! Why aren't there more people reading this together with me so we can fangirl and fanboy together!?!!

Don't judge me on the fangirling.

The secret to great personal work is being a fangirl. Only when I feel passionate can I create works passionately!


So 24 was an experience alright, here's hoping 25 will be even grander.

Thank you everyone for your encouragements and support and love, I hope I can continue to be a person you can be happy with and proud of. Happy birthday to me!

Jingna
May 4th, 2013

PS: Holy shit, 5 pages of birthday greetings, you guys are way too sweet. Love you dA

Sooo with Motherland Chronicles under way, I'm thinking I'll indulge myself and do all the things I haven't had a chance to in my career so far.

Anime/manga was one of the biggest reasons I became interested in art at all, so cosplay is something I've hoped to photograph for a long while now but never really had a chance.

So!! If you're a cosplayer and would like to shoot with me please read on

I'm mostly into 90's fantasy stuff and here's a full list of stuff I'd love to shoot in alphabetical order:

Alichino, Angel Sanctuary , Arslan Senki, Blade of the Immortal, Claymore, Doll, FF6-8, Gantz, Guilty Gear, Magna Carta, Monster Hunter, Nana, Noblesse, Trinity Blood, War of Genesis III, Weiss Kreuz, and pretty much any characters by Yoshitaka Amano, Range Murata, Clamp and Hyung Tae Kim. But I'm open to stuff that I haven't seen/played before as well!

If you're in the NY area or will be coming by, please drop me a note with your work!!

And feel free to send me recommendations if you know anyone awesome! Thank you



If I were to make videos, what part of my work or photography in general would you like to hear me talk about?

Would be great if you can be as specific as possible! Many thanks to all who've sent in suggestions via Facebook and Twitter!

SO SO.
I shall be embarking on a new project with !

Taken from the popular 'A Photo a Day', we're gonna do a picture a week! _{(we'll fail a picture a day so miserably lol)}


Rules:

1) No Boring™

2) Anything goes -- there is no subject/theme restrictions unless predetermined for a particular week.

3) Finishing work-in-progress images started prior to each week's submission is allowed.

4) A week starts Monday and images are due Sunday 11:59pm PST.


Prizes:

1) Become an awesomer™ artist

2) Possibility of publishing an artbook!


The main purpose of this is to finish something weekly, something we're both terrible terrible at. For me it's also going to be grounds for experimentation, so brace yourselves for the potentially random and wacky.

The journey begins next week Jan 28th, follow us! We'll be posting behind the scenes and work in progress on the MLC FB and Twitter!

Motherland Chronicles
Facebook: facebook.com/motherlandchr
Tumblr: motherlandchr.tumblr.com
Twitter: twitter.com/motherlandchr

:
Blog: tobias-kwan.blogspot.com
CGHUB: tobiee.cghub.com
Twitter: twitter.com/tobieee

:
Facebook: facebook.com/zemotion
Twitter: twitter.com/zemotion


PS: Please keep voting for me in [FRAMED] Awards? Voting ends Feb 8th, you can find my name "Zhang Jingna" under Fashion and Beauty: [link]

Ohai~ As promised, here's episode 6 of Asia's Next Top Model Cycle 1 where I was the photographer.



I really love the part with Helena, I think it's pretty funny haha.



NY's been awesome! I've been keeping busy. Thank you so much everyone for the suggestions and help in the last post! I really appreciate it.

Besides finding an apartment and getting 99 used Hermann Hesse books from Amazon, I've also got a new project planned with , to be announce soon. It's going to be something personal and fun and I'm super excited to start shooting.



I'm going to backtrack a little and post some behind-the-scenes from last year on my blog! If there's a particular shoot you'd like to see, leave a comment to let me know and I'll try to find something.



Last but not least, I'm a finalist in the Fashion and Beauty categories for [FRAMED] Awards! If you can vote for me it'd mean so much to me to have the judges see my work. Voting is daily until Feb 8th. Thank you [link]

Hello everyone and happy new year!! Hope everyone had a great holiday season~



I've finally moved! It's so colddddd. I'm now busy apartment-hunting, if you know any good places for me to look feel free to suggest! Need large space so I can shoot at home haha.

Super excited for what's in store here and hopefully I'll get to meet some awesome deviants! I can't wait for the shoots omgggg.



I'm putting together a list of those keen to assist me on shoots here in NYC, it will mostly be weekday daytime only. If you're interested send me a PM and we'll talk more about it!



There is a 2012 wrap-up post on my blog! Also a reading list! Feel free to check it out below to see what I've been up to the past year.

- 2012 Wrap-up

- Inspirational Reads 2012

I'm so going to be blogging more this year. I wrote like 4 posts in the past week lol.




I was photographer in the recent episode of Asia's Next Top Model! I think it will go online sometime in the next couple weeks, I shall link it when I know it. ^^


That be all for this post~ I wish everyone an epically artistic and awesome 2013!!!

PS: Follow me on Facebook, Twitter and Tumblr and stuff for regular updates~

Hi everyone~

A while ago I made my photobook Something Beautiful available for sale again. Amongst the feedback were some requests for my postcard collection as well.

Unfortunately I don't have the manpower to handle so much shipping and handling while working on my own, but I do have a few copies of it with me which I'd love to share with you.

Feel free to enter the giveaway if you don't have a copy yet, thank you so very much for the support everyone. ♥

Join the giveaway here.

I'm going to Stockholm tomorrow! Would anyone be interested in a meetup?

I was actually considering holding a workshop, but I don't really have the logistics capabilities to put something together under a short timeframe, since I'll need model, hair, makeup, stylist, studio, projector, etc. But meetup that I can try for sure.


I'll also be going to the WCS Nordic Nationals if anyone else is going! - [link]


In other news! Limited Edition of my photobook "Something Beautiful" is available for sale again until next Friday. [link]



Sorry for the very short timeframe I've opened it for, I just have so much travels it's really very difficult to keep it available for sale long-term since I handle all the shipping myself. >_<


Also have some new works and group exhibitions recently! Please follow me on Facebook and Twitter for all the updates~!

One of the biggest eSports events happened 2 weekends ago in Anaheim, California. $techgnotic was so kind as to drop by and check it out with my team Infinity Seven.

Check out his super amazing article here (with great art and a couple photos I took)!

Infinity Seven Takes On the Coming Zerg InvasionStarCraft II is the hot tournament videogame that just may breakthrough as the harbinger of the esports phenomenon and one of the great cultural game-changers of all time. Midnight in Anaheim. Caffeinated casters boom rapid fire commentary rattling the packed hall. Elite StarCraft players from around the globe execute complex strats that would have made Rommel the Desert Fox himself proud. 15,000 are in attendance, on the edge of their seats, and cheering as loudly as any soccer match as they watch the 30-foot screens hanging from the rafters. Another few hundred thousand are watching the streams live. The feeling is that of an NCAA Final Four game, set in a European soccer stadium, somehow shoehorned into a casino showroom in Las Vegas. It’s all of the skill, the fan devotion and the spectacle anyone could possibly ask for.


:icontechgnotic: Jun 15, 2012 by :devtec

What did you think about the questions for the readers? Link them here as I'd love to know everyone's thoughts! Here's mine: [link]

Did anyone else go to Anaheim? It was such a great event wasn't it?! I hope I can go for DreamHack one day too!

So like, woahhhh. 10 years. Crazy. How did time pass by so fast?

It doesn't really exactly feel like that long ago when I first started visiting dA and now it's already been a decade.  

So kinda for myself (and also anyone possibly interested) here's a journal post recapping my last 10 years~ (Also sort of my journal in photography too, I guess.)


May 17 2002
I signed up on dA when someone in the drawing group I hung out with told me to check out his works here. I was only 14 then. I didn't use dA a lot at the time because it looked like this: [link]

I was on a 15" 1024x768 display and the ad banner + dA header took up half my screen on every page load. Did not like. >_>

Sept 2003
I dropped by dA every now and then, in Sept I suddenly found it a lot more user-friendly, the new version: [link]

I added dA to my daily visit and I started making friends on the site.

Nov 2003
I started helping post his works on various art forums and websites, and became active on dA because of that.

Some of the first works of his I posted here:



Early 2004
*noah-kh started getting rather popular. (Back then, anyone with 10,000 pageviews was considered rather impressive, I think the new dA benchmark is probably at least 500,000 or 1 million, I have no clue.)

I liked meeting new people while managing his work. But still, it sucked to have nothing of my own to show. I started posting my modelling attempts:



Gahhh goosebumps. No offense to the photographers, I'm just really not model material.

2004-2005
I continued managing Noah's work, and met loads of awesome, cool people.  

I was very into Japanese Visual Rock and played the keyboard for a band that did a lot of X Japan and Luna Sea covers. I met a lot of other guys in the scene at various gigs and eventually met (Arissa), who was doing fashion design at school. And I thought hey, I wanna do that too, then I can make awesome costumes for myself for my photoshoots! Very nice, Jingna.

May 20006
I bought my first camera as a birthday gift to myself. Dude who sold me the camera didn't even tell me I needed a memory card for the camera! So my first photos with the camera ever were of perfume bottles because that's the only things I could think of photographing while tethered to the computer. -_-

After finally getting my hands on a CF card, I asked Arissa to model for my first photoshoot:


I had to feature her work because I loved her designs so much back then. Haha we were such punks.


Late 2006
It still hadn't really occurred to me that I'd wanna do fashion photography. But studying fashion design -- we had photo projects so I started experimenting in the direction.


The most convenient model was still myself though, so I started doing self portraits:


Did a collab with *noah-kh! He coloured my horrendous lineart, I can't for the life of me think why he would agree to something like that.



Early 2007
I started getting into daily top favorites on the frontpage. Not very often but here and there, 2-3 hours at a time. My watchers started growing and I started managing both my own account and *noah-kh's.

Mid 2007
I photographed some of my most viewed works on deviantART. The dress was actually school work I had to document, so it was quite unexpected for it to end up so well received.


I remember asking for his advice on Forgotten Fairytales, if or how I should edit the picture. I was considering smoothing out the dress towards the end or cropping it, but in the end we just agreed it looked the best as it was, so I left it alone. Since then I sort of came to the habit of trying to capture all elements as perfect as possible in my shot so I never have to go through the unnatural process of changing the flow of something, it became quite important to me.

Photographed my sister:



Received my very own Deviousness Award! You can read it on my page right under the Journal post.

Late 2007
My first commercial job! For Mandy Wu Jewelry [link]

I think like many of my first clients, Mandy discovered my work on dA.



Worked on a Gothic Lolita series "The Midnight Game".



Dec 2007
My last semester in fashion school. I decided to quit. You can read more about it on my blog post about my education here: [link]

By this time I already had some work offers. Small jobs like gigs, event photography, I was young and I was new, so I tried doing everything I could just to see how much I could make to support myself.


Early 2008
I started work as an assistant at a photo studio, more to placate my parents in my 2nd school-quitting episode than anything else. I lasted a month before I decided it was pointless if I don't get to shoot my own things, which I yearned to do so much of.

In order to really give focus to photography I quit the national air rifle team too, I saw that as the end of a chapter in my life. It was really quite a bit change.


Jan 2008
Wacom picked me up as a featured artist for their Cintiq range in Asia. The featured image was Luna:


I started experimenting with studio photography.



March 2008
X Japan Reunion!

For how much X Japan meant to me I couldn't miss out on this concert.

I met so many amazing people and made so many friends that trip to Japan that Tokyo remains one of the cities I actually have most friends gatherings in until today.

answered my call for assistants on dA and was a super wonderful help as translator/assistant over the next half a dozen or so trips I was there.

This was quite a life-changing trip as it gave me time to reflect on what I wanted to do with photography and gave me a sense of purpose.

I did SO much work there. And I can't believe Arissa and I managed to catch the cherry blossoms in full bloom for our shoot. It was so incredible.



Mid-late 2008
With the feeling of change and all the support I was shown on dA I decided to do an exhibition and a book.


I still have a hard time believing I was only 20 when I did that. And really, it probably would not have happened if not for the support I was receiving from everyone here.   


2009
Noah and I were both chosen as featured artists for the Intuos 4.



After my exhibition and book I started throwing myself into commercial/editorial work and thus reduced the amount of time I had for personal pieces, something which I regretted later. But looking back now, it was the year for so many 'first times', so I can't really exactly argue.  

The few personal shoots I managed to do, I was extremely proud of them.



Mid 2009

deviantART World Tour
Holy shit, I can't believe I went to THREE of them.

I went to Paris with photographer friend Quentin Shih to assist him on a gallery project for Dior, and since I was there I thought, hey I'll go to London too. I wonder if anyone else went to more stops than I did besides and ?




I came back to Singapore to confirmed jobs with Mercedes Benz Taiwan, Harper's Bazaar Singapore, Pond's Indonesia, and Gothic & Lolita Bible in Japan.

Shooting for Gothic & Lolita Bible was such a dream come true, having collected the magazine from since... volume 3 or 5 or something.



Late 2009
The awesome thing about travelling so much is meeting deviants from around the world. Got to photograph dA superstars and ~!



Dec 2009
I met and photographed Sugizo. For a PERSONAL shoot. Like. Holy shit.



And turns out Sugizo liked my photo enough that he requested to use it for his book the next year.



I wrote a little summary blog post for 2009, if you'd like you can read it here: [link]

2010
More exhibitions! I had 2 solo ones that year.

I held a show at Japan Creative Center in Singapore, I showed a collective of images from my earlier days, the central theme was visions inspired by Japan.


Feel free to check out some photos from the event here: [link]

Also had a street exhibition along Orchard Road in Singapore during the Audi Fashion Festival. It was quite a big set up as fashion works had never been showcased in that manner before.

Aug 2010
deviantART 10th Year Anniversary Birthday Bash!

I went with and met , , , , , and the guys from IFS!

It was superbly awesome and you can check out photos on my journal post:



End 2010
I continued travelling, moved to stay in Los Angeles for some time. In 2010 I got to visit Pixar, Blizzard, Dreamworks, and gave a talk for Canon in Singapore and at Laguna College of Art and Design. All was good.

Personal favourites from the year:



Jan 2011
Went to Montreal with and ! We crashed with and met up with , who gave me a tour at Ubisoft Montreal! Life is awesome when I get tours, I'm so very easy to please.


Mid 2011
I started a StarCraft II team, called Infinity Seven: [link]

I shot with Rain in Korea, and was interviewed by dA at Comic Con:



Oct 2011
deviantART decided to sponsor my team!

We've come a long way now from then and the roster has massively changed, and instead of no-name leagues we're actually getting into group play in major tournaments like MLGs etc. We wouldn't be where we are today without dA's support, so thank you dA.



Nov 2011


One of my favorite shoots from 2011:



2012
I coloured my hair a dozen times this year, it's now pink.

I got interviewed a few times in the SC2 community so I get to talk about dA quite often. XD

I'd been a bit busy with shooting, went to Vietnam in March and then New York the rest of it until late April.

Now I'm in the midst of working out a move to New York, so stay tuned for pictures from there soon~


In closing I'd like to thank all the wonderful people on dA for being such an awesome community~ You guys are so super amazing, you have no idea.

Last but not least thank you and everyone I can't fit in here because of the journal's 60kb post limit, you know who you are~ I'm so glad to have met you here and I love you all, stay awesome.

*Edit: Someone suggested I do an improvement meme, so I made one! My work from 2006-2012:


Relevant links:

My Education - [link]
Equipment and Where The Money Comes From - [link]

Next Thursday marks my 10th year on dA.

Like, woah, time sure passes by fast. I'm not sure if I'll be able to find time, but I think I'll try to make a birthday photo post, or something.


In other news! I'm happy to announce that I've been represented in New York and will thus be moving there sometime this year.

And my hair is pink now!

So um, yeah, that's it for now. I love you all, and thank you for the birthday messages!!

Last weekend I was lucky enough to be invited to ~NataliaTaffarel's workshop in Singapore. It's been a looooooong time since I'd been to any sort at all but I had so much fun. Natalia's so good and the people there were super nice~!! Hmm it's like, I've forgotten how it's like meeting so new people somehow. I guess working alone does that to people sometimes? T_T;;;  

Since then I'd been really productive and hardworking and it's a welcoming change I think. So definitely be expecting more updates from me~~



Anyway so I spent a lot of time with Natalia and the workshop organizers and they're finally making me think about doing some workshops too. I'd actually been asked about this pretty frequently but have really never said yes because I think it's just too difficult to do a good job and make everyone happy. But I know from the few talks I've done at schools and events I don't hate it or anything. So maybe it's time I want to give it a shot?

I'm wondering if I do host workshops where are locations that you guys are interested in? I guess I can do a poll later on but would love to have some suggestions here to start with :3



Also thinking about hitting up New York next month to meet with some magazines, photo reps and ad agencies, perhaps I can host a meetup again then~ And if anyone's interested in assisting during that time I'll post up notices when the planning stages are closer too.



Last but not least! I think I'll be heading to MLG Columbus and so are 2-3 of my players. So definitely do hit us up if you're there~ That's it for recent news. Do check out my gallery for recent works and my new hair

Hi everyone~ I've already announced this on Facebook and Twitter, but just for those who don't follow me on either, I wanted to let you know that I won Photographer of the Year at Elle Awards Singapore yesterday!!



It's really an honor and words can't describe how happy I am. I want to say thank you everyone for your kindness and support, and that I will keep on creating and work really really hard so I can present you more images. Thank you

Jingna

I'll be going live on Twit.tv in an hour at 1.30pm Pacific time.

If you have any questions for me please feel free to ask and I'll try to answer them during the show.

Will be talking about my photography, some of my favourite photos, gears, etc.

I'm sleep deprived so I'm not looking very good atm though so please forgive me for that T_T;;

Hope you guys will enjoy it if you tune in~~ Thanks

*edit*

Thank you for tuning in everyone!! I'm SO sorry we ran out of time to cover any questions at all (omg i talked too much). I will do an ask me anything later on I promise! And go over these questions for you <3

Hey guys~

Just wanted to point you to this journal post from - [link]

So yupp dA will be supporting my StarCraft II team~ For eSports~!!!

Thank you dA, and . I can't wait to bring some good results home to dA~

~`zemotion

I was interviewed at the dA booth when roaming around at #Comic-Con. Thanks so much for the interview dA (and everything you'd done for me these 9 years really)!! :3



Sorry I have no idea how to embed the video into the journal like the Comic-Con journal entries... ;_;

I published this on my Facebook but for those of you who don't know, I was recently in Korea for a job and wasn't really able to talk about it till now.

I was fortunate to be part of Anchor Beer's regional campaign in Asia starring superstar Rain.

RAINNN.

Chris Godfrey was the director for the TV commercial (an amazing, amazing man) and I shot the supporting print advertisement as well as a series of behind the scenes photos.

The print campaign was pretty straightforward but the TVC set was nothing short of spectacular. For 3 days we had a 4pm-4am schedule with the first day's shoot being a grand on-location night scene.

It was an incredible experience being able to see the making of and also be part of such a great project.

Thank you Anchor Beer and The Alchemy Partnership for having me along with your super amazing team, Conan Thai for being an awesome assistant and Lim Jooyeon for translating and assisting on location.



My team Infinity Seven just beat Evil Geniuses in a clanwar in the Esports Entertainment NA league.

We beat some really great players like EGiNcontroL, EGLzGaMeR and EGDeMusliM and lost to EGIdrA. T_T

To think the team has only been around for five months it's quite an accomplishment winning against such a great team. I'm super proud of my players Edge, jEcho and Taurent. If anyone's going to MLG Anaheim do look out for us (I'll be there!!) please do come and say hi~~ :3



I'll be going to Comic Con tomorrow and Sunday~!! If you have a table please let me know so I can go look for you haha~ I'll definitely be checking out `yuumei and dA's tables~ Should be super fun!!

Real quick update. I'll be at AX with tomorrow through Monday! Our table is E25 in the artist alley. If you play Monster Hunter (Freedome Unite or Portable 3rd) bring your PSP and we'll all play!

And also just a note, I upload lots on Facebook and Twitter these days because I'm so lazy with blogging and writing long descriptions for artworks and those are easier to update... T_T

So follow me on Facebook or Twitter for news, new works, updates and other stuff~!!

And and, if you play SC2 get on the NA server and come to channel "iS" to play some team games!! My ID is oTLJinn

Ohai guys, it's been a while.

I just went on the longest hiatus I'd ever had since I started photography, I think I'm back but man there's so much to catch up on.

Anyways, if anyone's interested, I'm holding a meetup here in Toronto this coming Tuesday before heading back to Singapore on Friday.

For more details please check the events page here: [link]

If you don't follow my blog I'd also made a post on tips for fashion photography recently, you can check it out here: [link]

Thanks for all the comments, emails, notes, etc~


Jingna

PS: If you play StarCraft 2 and wanna hang out my clan's channel is "iS" on the NA server and my username is oTLJinn~ We're looking for good master players to practice with but please feel free to come by to say hi whenever~

Lights are wrapped around the trees lining Omotesando Dori, it's beautiful, and reminds me of how close Christmas really is.

I was just settling into Toronto after touching down last Thursday, before an unexpected email from Sugizo's manager arrived two days later, asking if I'd be keen to photograph Luna Sea's LIVE in Tokyo at Tokyo Dome this weekend.

The past couple days had been sleepless with my packing, flight from LA to Toronto, meetings, more meetings, retouching, the pending confirmation for my Tokyo trip, and then packing again followed by the 13-hour flight from Toronto to Narita. I was retouching even on the plane.

During my short stay in Toronto I managed to meet up with , , , , and who were all really, really wonderful to be with. I can also safely say without and (who stayed up with me to keep me awake while retouching) I probably wouldn't have survived those days. Thank you my dears. ;_;

It feels good to be back in Japan, this trip marks my 10th time in Tokyo. In some ways, the familiarity makes it feel like a 2nd home to me now. And I think that familiarity is something really beautiful, for it brings back memories, making those moments feel close and real again, and that feeling is precious, almost like a dream, but real. So much memories here.